It’s time to get up, close and personal. I can not believe I am posting this online. I feel like when you join a weight loss plan and you have to take your before weight.

I want to show what my skin and scars look like as of 21st August 2016.

As at this point I have used quite a few products and I feel like my skin has improved significantly in the last 4 months. Unfortunately, I didn’t have the good sense of taking before photos.

I purchased a PMD  (Personal MicroDerm) machine which I use every Wednesday. I have also been using the Alpha-H Liquid Gold range (You can find my reviews here Liquid Gold and here Intensive Night Repair Serum) products and using a sheet mask daily for the last 5 or so weeks.

I know it’s important to take before and after pictures too see progress, but lets be honest my skin is in terrible shape and I avoid looking at it too closely.

So let me turn some 2Pac on for courage and let’s get started!


chin angle as of 21st of August 2016

In case you couldn’t tell this is my chin (at least one of them). It’s not so much of having tons of scaring but I have these clusters of of acne under my skin that don’t really do anything but sit there. I have tried so many different things to try to get them out so they can go to do a wham, bam, I will scar you now. Is it possible that it’s scars that have transformed into something in between acne and scarring?

I have tried many times to try to get them out, by exfoliation and masks that really clear out your pores plus a few other things.

Right hand side as of 21st of August 2016

This is my right cheek, which I think it’s slowly getting a bit better. You can see it goes up to my temple area as well. I do have to be careful when putting on the heavy hitting skin stuff that I don’t get to close to my eye.

Left hand side as of 21st of August 2016

This is my left check which I kind of feel like the scars aren’t as deep as the right hand side but it’s more spread out.

So there you are, this is what I’m working with.

You know the funny thing is I don’t remember having bad skin issues when I was younger. I believe it’s the way it is now for 2 reasons. First, not taking proper care and with quality products, of my skin for my million years of living until this year. Second, when I was younger and wore makeup I never bothered removing it, it would just stay on until I showered the next day.

If you have any suggestions or product recommendations please let me know in the comments below. Or even if you want to share your story I’d love to hear it.

I know some people have it a lot worse than me and I have to remember to be grateful for what I have each day. But it’s easier said then done.

rant up ahead

You know what REALLY angers me, total strangers telling you what’s best for you when you never asked for their opinion. I’m sure the majority  don’t mean any disrespect by it, but just shut your trap. I went to the chemist to buy some cough medicine, the lady who rang me up started saying I should use coconut oil to help me lose weight and also put some on my face. I was like WTF? I didn’t ask you for your opinion on any of this. Yes I know my skin isn’t in great shape and that I’m overweight, I don’t need you to point it out. I didn’t even come into this shop for items to help in that way. I’ve had that happen so many times though, just from people who clearly don’t work at a skin care centre.

end of rant

We’re all from different backgrounds, ages, different places of the world, some may have health reasons, acne in other places of our body and the list goes on. I always feel like when I meet people my acne scars are the first thing they notice before noticing another feature. It’s not a nice feeling. You know what I have finally decided though, if that’s what they want to focus and judge me on, then they aren’t worth getting to know me for me. I love the person I am today and always treat people the way I’d want to be treated.

Of course when you’re young in school, it’s a lot harder. I wish I could give every young person feeling badly because of their skin, that is out of their control, a huge hug. Let them know that it will make you a stronger and confident in other ways when you’re an adult.

It’s rough having break outs when you’re a grown ass adult as well.

All we can do is try all these lotions and potions to try to get some form of relief. Even look into changing/adding to your diet may be beneficial, but I can’t really say much on the subject because I simply don’t know. Maybe even go on medicine if the right doctor recommends that.

I might do another update in like 3 months to show you the progress and if it’s changed at all.

I hope this wasn’t a depressing post but I want to be honest. This is the reality of my skin (hence the name)!